2 new moon新月-第33章
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〃I would have figured you for a trail kind of girl。〃
〃Not me。〃 I smiled bleakly。 〃I'm a rebel。〃
He laughed； and then pulled out our map。
〃Give me a second。〃 He held the compass in a skilled way； twisting the map around till it angled the way
he wanted。
〃Okay—first line on the grid。 Let's do it。〃
I could tell that I was slowing Jacob up； but he didn't complain。 I tried not to dwell on my last trip through
this part of the forest； with a very different companion。 Normal memories were still cangerous。 If I let
myself slip up； I'd end up with my arms clutching my chest to hold it together； gasping for air； and how
would I explain that to Jacob？
It wasn't as hard as I would have thought to keep focused on the present。 The forest looked a lot like any
other part of the peninsula； and Jacob set a vastly different mood。
He whistled cheerfully； an unfamiliar tune； swinging his arms and moving easily through the rough
undergrowth。 The shadows didn't seem as dark as usual。 Not with my personal sun along。
Jacob checked the compass every few minutes； keeping us in a straight line with one of the radiating
spokes of his grid。 He really looked like he knew what he was doing。 I was going to compliment him； but
I caught myself。 No doubt he'd add another few years to his inflated age。
My mind wandered as I walked； and I grew curious。 I hadn't forgotten the conversation we'd had by the
sea cliffs—I'd been waiting for him to bring it up again； but it didn't look like that was going to happen。
〃Hey… Jake？〃 I asked hesitantly。
〃Yeah？〃
〃How are things… with Embry？ Is he back to normal yet？〃
Jacob was silent for a minute； still moving forward with long paces。 When he was about ten feet ahead；
he stopped to wait for me。
〃No。 He's not back to normal；〃 Jacob said when I reached him； his mouth pulling down at the corners。
He didn't start walking again。 I immediately regretted bringing it up。
〃StillwithSam。〃
〃Yup。〃
He put his arm around my shoulder； and he looked so troubled that I didn't playfully shake it off； as I
might have otherwise。
〃Are they still looking at you funny？〃 I half…whispered。
Jacob stared through the trees。 〃Sometimes。〃
〃AndBilly？〃
〃As helpful as ever；〃 he said in a sour； angry voice that disturbed me。
〃Our couch is always open；〃 I offered。
He laughed； breaking out of the unnatural gloom。 〃But think of the position that would put Charlie
in—when Billy calls the police to report my kidnapping。〃
I laughed too； glad to have Jacob back to normal。
We stopped when Jacob said we'd gone six miles； cut west for a short time； and headed back along
another line of his grid。 Everything looked exactly the same as the way in； and I had a feeling that my silly
quest was pretty much doomed。 I admitted as much when it started to get darker； the sunless day fading
toward a starless night； but Jacob was more confident。
〃As long as you're sure we're starting from the right place…〃 He glanced down at me。
〃Yes； I'm sure。〃
〃Then we'll find it；〃 he promised； grabbing my hand and pulling me through a mass of ferns。 On the other
side was the truck。 He gestured toward it proudly。 〃Trust me。〃
〃You're good；〃 I admitted。 〃Next time we bring flashlights； though。〃
〃We'll save hiking for Sundays from now on。 I didn't know you were that slow。〃
I yanked my hand back and stomped around to the driver's side while he chuckled at my reaction。
〃So you up for another try tomorrow。'〃 he asked； sliding into the passenger seat。
〃Sure。 Unless you want to go without me so I don't tie you down to my gimpy pace。〃
〃I'll survive；〃 he assured me。 〃If we're hiking again； though； you might want to pick up some moleskin。 I
bet you can feel those new boots right now。〃
〃A little；〃 I confessed。 It felt like I had more blisters than I had space to fit them。
〃I hope we see the bear tomorrow。 I'm sort of disappointed about that。〃
〃Yes； me； too；〃 I agreed sarcastically。 〃Maybe we'll get lucky tomorrow and something will eat us！〃
〃Bears don't want to eat people。 We don't taste that good。〃 He grinned at me in the dark cab。 〃Of
course； you might be an exception。 I bet you'd taste good。〃
〃Thanks so much；〃 I said； looking away。 He wasn't the first person to tell me that。
9。 THIRD WHEEL
TIME BEGAN TO TRIP ALONG MUCH MORE QUICKLY than before。 School； work； and
Jacob—though not necessarily in that order—created a neat and effortless pattern to follow。 And Charlie
got his wish： I wasn't miserable anymore。 Of course； I couldn't fool myself completely。 When I stopped
to take stock of my life； which I tried not to do too often； I couldn't ignore the implications of my
behavior。
I was like a lost moon—my planet destroyed in some cataclysmic； disaster…movie scenario of
desolation—that continued； nevertheless； to circle in a tight little orbit around the empty space left behind；
ignoring the laws of gravity。
I was getting better with my bike； which meant fewer bandages to worry Charlie。 But it also meant that
the voice in my head began to fade； until I heard it no more。 Quietly； I panicked。 I threw myself into the
search for the meadow with slightly frenzied intensity。 I racked my brain for other adrenaline…producing
activities。
I didn't keep track of the days ：hat passed—there was no reason； as I tried to live as much in the present
as possible； no past fading； no future impending。 So I was surprised by the date when Jacob brought it
up on one of our homework days。 He was waiting when I pulled up in front of his house。
〃Happy Valentine's Day；〃 Jacob said； smiling； but ducking his head as he greeted me。
He held out a small； pink box； balancing it on his palm。 Conversation hearts。
〃Well； I feel like a schmuck；〃 I mumbled。 〃Is today Valentine's Day？〃
Jacob shook his head with mock sadness。 〃You can be so out of it sometimes。 Yes； it is the fourteenth
day of February。 So are you going to be my Valentine？ Since you didn't get me a fifty…cent box of candy；
it's the least you can do。〃
I started to feel uncomfortable。 The words were teasing； but only on the surface。
〃What exactly does that entail？〃 I hedged。
〃The usual—slave for life； that kind of thing。〃
〃Oh； well； if that's all…〃 I took the candy。 But I was trying to think of some way to make the boundaries
clear。 Again。 They seemed to get blurred a lot with Jacob。
〃So； what are we doing tomorrow？ Hiking； or the ER？〃
〃Hiking；〃 I decided。 〃You're not the only one who can be obsessive。 I'm starting to think I imagined that
place…〃 I frowned into space。
〃We'll find it；〃 he assured me。 〃Bikes Friday？〃 he offered。
I saw a chance and took it without taking time to think it through。
〃I'm going to a movie Friday。 I've been promising my cafeteria crowd that I would go out forever。〃 Mike
would be pleased。
But Jacob's face fell。 I caught the expression in his dark eyes before he dropped them to look at the
ground。
〃You'll come too； right？〃 I added quickly。 〃Or will it be too much of a drag with a bunch of boring
seniors？〃 So much for my chance to put some distance between us。 I couldn't stand hurting Jacob； we
seemed to be connected in an odd way； and his pain set off little stabs of my own。 Also； the idea of
having his company for the ordeal—I had promised Mike； but really didn't feel any enthusiasm at the
thought of following through—was just too tempting。
〃You'd like me to come； with your friends there？〃
〃Yes；〃 I admitted honestly； knowing as I continued that I was probably shooting myself in the foot with
my words。 〃I'll have a lot more fun if you're there。 Bring Quil； and we'll make it a party。〃
〃Quil's gonna freak。 Senior girls。〃 He chortled and rolled his eyes。 I didn't mention Embry； and neither did
he。 I laughed； too。 〃I'll try to get hin a good selection。〃
I broached the subject with Mike in English。
〃Hey； Mike；〃 I said when class was over。 〃Are you free Friday night？〃
He looked up； his blue eyes instantly hopeful。 〃Yeah； I am。 You want to go out？〃
I worded my reply carefully。 〃I was thinking about getting a gr
