2 new moon新月-第65章

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〃You'll　come　back？〃　I　asked　in　a　small　voice。　

〃I　promise—one　hour。〃　

I　glanced　at　the　clock　over　the　kitchen　table。　She　laughed　and　leaned　in　quickly　to　kiss　me　on　the　cheek。　
Then　she　was　gone。　

I　took　a　deep　breath。　Alice　would　be　back。　I　suddenly　felt　so　much　better。　

I　had　plenty　to　do　to　keep　myself　busy　while　I　waited。　A　shower　was　definitely　first　on　the　agenda。　I　
sniffed　my　shoulders　as　I　undressed；　but　I　couldn't　smell　anything　but　the　brine　and　seaweed　scent　of　the　
ocean。　I　wondered　what　Alice　had　meant　about　me　smelling　bad。　

When　I　was　cleaned　up；　I　went　back　to　the　kitchen。　I　couldn't　see　any　signs　that　Charlie　'lad　eaten　
recently；　and　he　would　probably　be　hungry　when　he　got　back。　I　hummed　tunelessly　to　myself　as　I　moved　

around　the　kitchen。　

While　Thursday's　casserole　rotated　in　the　microwave；　I　made　up　the　couch　with　sheets　and　an　old　pillow。　
Alice　wouldn't　need　it；　but　Charlie　would　need　to　see　it。　I　was　careful　not　to　watch　the　clock。　There　was　
no　reason　to　start　myself　panicking；　Alice　had　promised。　

I　hurried　through　my　dinner；　not　tasting　it—just　feeling　the　ache　as　it　slid　down　my　raw　throat。　Mostly　I　
was　thirsty；　I　must　have　drunk　a　half　gallon　of　water　by　the　time　I　was　finished。　All　the　salt　in　my　system　
had　dehydrated　me。　

I　went　to　go　try　to　watch　TV　while　I　waited。　

Alice　was　already　there；　sitting　on　her　improvised　bed。　Her　eyes　were　a　liquid　butterscotch。　She　smiled　
and　patted　the　pillow。　〃Thanks。〃　

〃You're　early；〃　I　said；　elated。　

I　sat　down　next　to　her　and　leaned　my　head　on　her　shoulder。　She　put　her　cold　arms　around　me　and　
sighed。　

〃Bella。　What　are　we　going　to　do　with　you？〃　

〃I　don't　know；〃　I　admitted。　〃I　really　have　been　trying　my　hardest。〃　

〃I　believe　you。〃　

It　was　silent。　

〃Does—does　he…〃　I　took　a　deep　breath。　It　was　harder　to　say　his　name　out　loud；　even　though　I　was　
able　to　think　it　now。　〃Does　Edward　know　you're　here？〃　I　couldn't　help　asking。　It　was　my　pain；　after　all。　
I'd　deal　with　it　when　she　was　gone；　I　promised　myself；　and　felt　sick　at　the　thought。　

〃No。〃　

There　was　only　one　way　that　could　be　true。　〃He's　not　with　Carlisle　and　Esme？〃　

〃He　checks　in　every　few　months。〃　

〃Oh。〃　He　must　still　be　out　enjoying　his　distractions。　I　focused　my　curiosity　on　a　safer　topic。　〃You　said　you　
flew　here…　Where　did　you　come　from？〃　

〃I　was　in　Denali。　Visiting　Tanya's　family。〃　

〃Is　Jasper　here？　Did　he　come　with　your'〃　

She　shook　her　head。　〃He　didn't　approve　of　my　interfering。　We　promised…〃　she　trailed　off；　and　then　her　
tone　changed。　〃And　you　think　Charlie　won't　mind　my　being　here？〃　she　asked；　sounding　worried。　

〃Charlie　thinks　you're　wonderful；　Alice。〃　

〃Well；　we're　about　to　find　out。〃　

Sure　enough；　a　few　seconds　later　I　heard　the　cruiser　pull　into　the　driveway。　I　jumped　up　and　hurried　to　
open　the　door。　

Charlie　trudged　slowly　up　the　walk；　his　eyes　on　the　ground　and　his　shoulders　slumped。　I　walked　forward　

to　meet　him；　he　didn't　even　see　me　until　I　hugged　him　around　the　waist。　He　embraced　me　back　fiercely。　

〃I'm　so　sorry　about　Harry；　Dad。〃　

〃I'm　really　going　to　miss　him；〃　Charlie　mumbled。　

〃How's　Sue　doing？〃　

〃She　seems　dazed；　like　she　hasn't　grasped　it　yet。　Sam's　staying　with　her…〃　The　volume　of　his　voice　faded　
in　and　out。　〃Those　poor　kids。　Leah's　just　a　year　older　than　you；　and　Seth　is　only　fourteen…〃　He　shook　
his　head。　

He　kept　his　arms　tight　around　me　as　he　started　toward　the　door　again。　

〃Um；　Dad？〃　I　figured　I'd　better　warn　him。　〃You'll　never　guess　who's　here。〃　

He　looked　at　me　blankly。　His　head　swiveled　around；　and　he　spied　the　Mercedes　across　the　street；　the　
porch　light　reflecting　off　the　glossy　black　paint。　Before　he　could　react；　Alice　was　in　the　doorway。　

〃Hi；　Charlie；〃　she　said　in　a　subdued　voice。　〃I'm　sorry　I　came　at　such　a　bad　time。〃　

〃Alice　Cullen？〃　he　peered　at　the　slight　figure　in　front　of　him　as　if　he　doubted　what　his　eyes　were　telling　
him。　〃Alice；　is　that　you？〃　

〃It's　me；〃　she　confirmed。　〃I　was　in　the　neighborhood。〃　

〃Is　Carlisle…？〃　

〃No；　I'm　alone。〃　

Both　Alice　and　I　knew　he　wasn't　really　asking　about　Carlisle。　His　arm　tightened　over　my　shoulder。　

〃She　can　stay　here；　can't　she？〃　I　pleaded。　〃I　already　asked　her。〃　

〃Of　course；〃　Charlie　said　mechanically。　〃We'd　love　to　have　you；　Alice。〃　

〃Thank　you；　Charlie。　I　know　it's　horrid　timing。〃　

〃No；　it's　fine；　really。　I'm　going　to　be　really　busy　doing　what　I　can　for　Harry's　family；　it　will　be　nice　for　
Bella　to　have　some　company。〃　

〃There's　dinner　for　you　on　the　table；　Dad；〃　I　told　him。　

〃Thanks；　Bell。〃　He　gave　me　one　more　squeeze　before　he　shuffled　toward　the　kitchen。　

Alice　went　back　to　the　couch；　and　I　followed　her。　This　time；　she　was　the　one　to　pull　me　against　her　
shoulder。　

〃You　look　tired。〃　

〃Yeah；〃　I　agreed；　and　shrugged。　〃Near…death　experiences　do　that　to　me…　So；　what　does　Carlisle　think　
of　you　being　here？〃　

〃He　doesn't　know。　He　and　Esme　were　on　a　hunting　trip。　I'll　hear　from　him　in　a　few　days；　when　he　gets　
back。〃　

〃You　won't　tell　him；　though…　when　he　checks　in　again？〃　I　asked。　She　knew　I　didn't　mean　Carlisle　now。　

〃No。　He'd　bite　my　head　off；〃　Alice　said　grimly。　

I　laughed　once；　and　then　sighed。　

I　didn't　want　to　sleep。　I　wanted　to　stay　up　all　night　talking　to　Alice。　And　it　didn't　make　sense　for　me　to　be　
tired；　what　with　crashing　on　Jacob's　couch　all　day。　But　drowning　really　had　taken　a　lot　out　of　me；　and　my　
eyes　wouldn't　stay　open。　I　rested　my　head　on　her　stone　shoulder；　and　drifted　into　a　more　peaceful　
oblivion　than　I　had　any　hope　of。　

I　woke　early；　from　a　deep　and　dreamless　sleep；　feeling　well…rested；　but　stiff。　I　was　on　the　couch　tucked　
under　the　blankets　I'd　laid　out　for　Alice；　and　I　could　hear　her　and　Charlie　talking　in　the　kitchen。　It　
sounded　like　Charlie　was　fixing　her　breakfast。　

〃How　bad　was　it；　Charlie？〃　Alice　asked　softly；　and　at　first　I　thought　they　were　talking　about　the　
Clearwaters。　

Charlie　sighed。　〃Real　bad。〃　

〃Tell　me　about　it。　I　want　to　know　exactly　what　happened　when　we　left。〃　

There　was　a　pause　while　a　cupboard　door　was　closed　and　a　dial　on　the　stove　was　clicked　off。　I　waited；　
cringing。　

〃I've　never　felt　so　helpless；〃　Charlie　began　slowly。　〃I　didn't　know　what　to　do。　That　first　week—I　thought　I　
was　going　to　have　to　hospitalize　her。　She　wouldn't　eat　or　drink；　she　wouldn't　move。　Dr。　Gerandy　was　
throwing　around　words　like　'catatonic；'　but　I　didn't　let　him　up　to　see　her。　I　was　afraid　it　would　scare　her。〃　

〃She　snapped　out　of　it　though？〃　

〃I　had　Renee　come　to　take　her　to　Florida。　I　just　didn't　want　to　be　the　one…　if　she　had　to　go　to　a　hospital　
or　something。　I　hoped　being　with　her　mother　would　help。　But　when　we　started　packing　her　clothes；　she　
woke　up　with　a　vengeance。　I've　never　seen　Bella　throw　a　fit　like　that。　She　was　never　one　for　the　
tantrums；　but；　boy；　did　she　fly　into　a　fury。　She　threw　her　clothes　everywhere　and　screamed　that　we　
couldn't　make　her　leave—and　then　she　finally　started　crying。　I　thought　that　would　be　the　turning　point。　I　
didn't　argue　when　she　insisted　on　staying　here…　and　she　did　seem　to　get　better　at　first…〃　

Charlie　trailed　off。　It　was　hard　listening　to　this；　knowing　how　much　pain　I'd　caused　him。　

〃But？〃　Alice　prompted。　

〃She　went　back　to　school　and　work；　she　ate　and　slept　and　did　her　homework。　She　answered　when　
someone　asked　her　a　direct　question。　But　she　was…　empty。　Her　eyes　were　blank。　There　were　lots　of　
little　things—she　wouldn't　listen　to　music　anymore；　I　found　a　bunch　of　CDs　broken　in　the　trash。　She　didn't　
read；　she　wouldn't　be　in　the　same　room　when　the　TV　was　on；　not　that　she　watched　it　so　much　before。　I　
finally　figured　it　out—she　was　avoiding　everything　that　might　remind　her　of…　him。　

〃We　could　hardly　talk；　I　was　so　worried　about　saying　something　that　would　upset　her—the　littlest　things　
would　make　her　flinch—and　she　never　volunteered　anything。　She　would　just　answer　if　I　asked　her　
something。　

〃She　was　alone　all　the　time。　She　didn't　call　her　friends　back；　and　after　a　while；　they　stopped　calling。　

〃It　was　night　of　the　living　dead　around　here。　I　still　hear　her　screaming　in　her　sleep…〃　

I　could　a