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tears were not absent�察�in the Chapel of the Great Mother。 ;Light of Love�察─�
the girl had called his mother�察�what more beautiful name could he find for
the Queen of Saints herself�拭 �So he prayed in his simplicity�此� ;Great
Light of Love�察�Mother of my mother�察�grant love�察�love�察�love�察�to thy poor
sinful son� ─�
The question came in his daily life。
Did he love the Prior�拭 �He feared him�察�and his voice was for Hilarius
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as the voice of God Himself。 Brother John�拭 �He feared him too�察�Brother
John's tongue was a thing to fear。 Brother Richard�察 �old�察 �half´blind�拭�
Surely he loved Brother Richard�拭 � sad�察�helpless�察�and lonely�察�by reason of
his infirmities ´ or was it only pity he felt for him�拭�
Nay�察 �let be�察 �he loved them all。 The Monastery was his home�察 �the
Prior his father�察�the monks his brethren�察�why heed the wild words of the
witch in the forest�拭 �And yet what was it she had said�拭 �For me the wide
world�察�hunger�察�and love ´ love ´ love� ─�
He wandered in the Monastery garden and was troubled by its beauties。
Two sulphur butterflies sported around the tall white lilies at the farmery
door。 Did they love�拭�
He watched the sparrows at their second nesting�察�full of business and
cheerful bickerings。 Did they love�拭�
She had said the answer was writ large for him to see�此 �he wandered
staring�察�wide´eyed but sightless。
At last in his sore distress he turned to the Prior�察�as the ship´ wrecked
mariner turns to the sea´girt rock that towers serene and unhurt above the
devouring waves。
The Prior heard him patiently�察�with here and there a shrewd question。
When the halting tale was told he mused awhile�察�his stern blue eyes grew
tender�察�and a little smile troubled the firm line of his mouth。
;My son�察─ �he said at length�察 �thou art in the wrong school�察 �nursery�察�
was it the maid said�拭 �A shrewd lass and welcome to the hen。 Thou art a
limner at heart ´ Brother Bernard tells of thy wondrous skill with the brush
´ and to be limner thou must learn to hunger and to love as the maid said。
Ay�察�boy�察�and to be monk too�察�though alack�察�men gainsay it。;
;Father�察─�said Hilarius�察�waxing bold from excessive need�察 �did'st thou
ever love as the maid meant�拭─�
;Ay�察�boy ´ thy mother。;
There was a long silence。 Then the boy said timidly�此�
;The maid said she might be light of love�察�'tis a beautiful thought。;
The Prior started�察�and looked at him curiously�此�
;What didst thou tell the maid�拭─�
;That I never knew her�察 �but that my father was a gentle knight who
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died ere I saw him�察�and then the maid said perchance my mother was light
of love。;
;Boy�察─ �said the Prior gravely�察 �'tis a weary tale�察 �and sad of telling。
Thy mother was wondrous fair without�察�but she reckoned love lightly�察�nay�察�
knew it not for the holy thing it is�察�but thought only of bodily lusts。 Pray
for her soul; ´ his voice grew stern ´ ;as for one of those upon whom God�察�
in His great pity�察 �may have mercy。 Thus have I prayed these many
years。;
Hilarius looked at him in wide´eyed horror�此�
;She was evil�察�wicked�察�my mother�拭─�
;Ay ´ a light woman�察�that was what the maid meant。;
Then great darkness fell upon the soul of Hilarius�察�and he clasped the
Prior's knees weeping and praying like a little child。
;And so�察�my son�察─�said the Prior�察 �for a time thou shalt go out into the
world�察�to strive and fail�察�hunger and love�察�only have a care that thou art
chaste in heart and life�察�for it is the pure shall see God�察�and seeing love
Him。 Leave me now that。 I may set in order thy going�察�and send the
Chamberlain hither to me。;
That night Hilarius knelt through the long hours at the great Rood�察�and
then at St Mary Maudlin's altar he did penance for his dead mother's sin。
A week later he left the Monastery as a bird leaves its nest�察 �nay�察 �is
pushed out by the far´seeing parent bird�察�full of vague terrors of the great
world without。 He had a purse for his immediate needs�察�a letter to a great
knight�察�Sir John Maltravers�察�who would be his patron�察�and another to the
Prior's good friend�察�the Abbat of St Alban's。 The Convent bade him a sad
farewell�察 �for they loved this gentle lad who had been with them from a
little child�察�and Brother Richard strained his filmy eyes to look his last at
the young face he would never see again。
The Prior gave him the Communion�察�and later walked beside him to
the gates。 Then as Hilarius knelt he blessed him�察 �and the boy�察�
overmastered by nameless fear�察�sprang up and prayed that he might stay
and learn some other way�察�however hard。 The Prior shook his head。
;Nay�察�my son�察�so it must be�察�else how shall I answer to the Master for
this most precious lamb of my flock�拭 �Come back to us ´ an thou can'st ´
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let no fear deter thee�察�only take heed�察�when thine eyes are opened and the
great gifts of hunger and love are vouchsafed thee�察�to keep still the faithful
heart of a little child。;
Then he bade him go�察�and Hilarius�察�for the pull of his heart´ strings�察�
must needs run hot´foot down the broad forest road and along the highway�察�
without daring to look back�察�and so out into the wide�察�wide world。
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CHAPTER III ´ THE KING'S SONG´BIRD
MARTIN THE MINSTREL sat under a wayside oak singing softly to
himself as he tuned his vielle。 He was a long lanky fellow with straight
black locks flat against his sallow face�察�and dark eyes that smouldered in
hollow cavities。 He wore the King's colours�察 �and broke a manchet of
white bread with his mid´day repast。
;Heigh´ho� ─ �sighed Martin�察 �and laid the vielle lovingly beside him�察�
;another four leagues to Westminster�察�and I weary enough of shoe´ leather
already�察�and not another penny piece in my pocket 'til I win back to good
King Ned。 A brave holiday I have had�察�from Candlemas to Midsummer�察�
free to sing or to be silent�察 �to smile or frown�察 �wide England instead of
palace walls�察�a crust of bread and a jug of cider instead of a king's banquet。
Now but another few leagues and the cage again。 Money in my pocket�察�
true�察�but a song here and a song there�察�such as suit the fancy of the Court
gentles�察�not of Martin the Minstrel。 Heigh´ho�察�heigh´ho� �'tis a poor bird
sings at the word of a king�察�and a poor enough song too�察�if Edward did but
know it。
;Who comes here�拭 �Faith�察 �the lad goes a steady pace and carries a
light heart from his song�察�and no ill voice either。;
It was Hilarius�察�and he sang the Alma Redemptoris as he sped along
the green grass which bordered the highway。
When Martin hailed him he turned aside gladly�察�and his face lit up at
the sight of the vielle。
;Whence dost thou come�察�lad�拭─�said Martin�察�eyeing him with interest。
;Many days' journey from the Monastery of Prior Stephen�察─�answered
Hilarius。
;But thou art no monk� ─�
;Nay�察�a novice scarcely�察�but the Prior hath bidden me