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type both in life and art。



Behind joy and laughter there may be a temperament; coarse; hard and

callous。  But behind sorrow there is always sorrow。  Pain; unlike

pleasure; wears no mask。  Truth in art is not any correspondence

between the essential idea and the accidental existence; it is not

the resemblance of shape to shadow; or of the form mirrored in the

crystal to the form itself; it is no echo coming from a hollow hill;

any more than it is a silver well of water in the valley that shows

the moon to the moon and Narcissus to Narcissus。  Truth in art is

the unity of a thing with itself:  the outward rendered expressive

of the inward:  the soul made incarnate:  the body instinct with

spirit。  For this reason there is no truth comparable to sorrow。

There are times when sorrow seems to me to be the only truth。  Other

things may be illusions of the eye or the appetite; made to blind

the one and cloy the other; but out of sorrow have the worlds been

built; and at the birth of a child or a star there is pain。



More than this; there is about sorrow an intense; an extraordinary

reality。  I have said of myself that I was one who stood in symbolic

relations to the art and culture of my age。  There is not a single

wretched man in this wretched place along with me who does not stand

in symbolic relation to the very secret of life。  For the secret of

life is suffering。  It is what is hidden behind everything。  When we

begin to live; what is sweet is so sweet to us; and what is bitter

so bitter; that we inevitably direct all our desires towards

pleasures; and seek not merely for a 'month or twain to feed on

honeycomb;' but for all our years to taste no other food; ignorant

all the while that we may really be starving the soul。De Profundis







VITA NUOVA







Far off; like a perfect pearl; one can see the city of God。  It is

so wonderful that it seems as if a child could reach it in a

summer's day。  And so a child could。  But with me and such as me it

is different。  One can realise a thing in a single moment; but one

loses it in the long hours that follow with leaden feet。  It is so

difficult to keep 'heights that the soul is competent to gain。'  We

think in eternity; but we move slowly through time; and how slowly

time goes with us who lie in prison I need not tell again; nor of

the weariness and despair that creep back into one's cell; and into

the cell of one's heart; with such strange insistence that one has;

as it were; to garnish and sweep one's house for their coming; as

for an unwelcome guest; or a bitter master; or a slave whose slave

it is one's chance or choice to be。



And; though at present my friends may find it a hard thing to

believe; it is true none the less; that for them living in freedom

and idleness and comfort it is more easy to learn the lessons of

humility than it is for me; who begin the day by going down on my

knees and washing the floor of my cell。  For prison life with its

endless privations and restrictions makes one rebellious。  The most

terrible thing about it is not that it breaks one's hearthearts

are made to be brokenbut that it turns one's heart to stone。  One

sometimes feels that it is only with a front of brass and a lip of

scorn that one can get through the day at all。  And he who is in a

state of rebellion cannot receive grace; to use the phrase of which

the Church is so fondso rightly fond; I dare sayfor in life as

in art the mood of rebellion closes up the channels of the soul; and

shuts out the airs of heaven。  Yet I must learn these lessons here;

if I am to learn them anywhere; and must be filled with joy if my

feet are on the right road and my face set towards 'the gate which

is called beautiful;' though I may fall many times in the mire and

often in the mist go astray。



This New Life; as through my love of Dante I like sometimes to call

it; is of course no new life at all; but simply the continuance; by

means of development; and evolution; of my former life。  I remember

when I was at Oxford saying to one of my friends as we were

strolling round Magdalen's narrow bird…haunted walks one morning in

the year before I took my degree; that I wanted to eat of the fruit

of all the trees in the garden of the world; and that I was going

out into the world with that passion in my soul。  And so; indeed; I

went out; and so I lived。  My only mistake was that I confined

myself so exclusively to the trees of what seemed to me the sun…lit

side of the garden; and shunned the other side for its shadow and

its gloom。  Failure; disgrace; poverty; sorrow; despair; suffering;

tears even; the broken words that come from lips in pain; remorse

that makes one walk on thorns; conscience that condemns; self…

abasement that punishes; the misery that puts ashes on its head; the

anguish that chooses sack…cloth for its raiment and into its own

drink puts gall:… all these were things of which I was afraid。  And

as I had determined to know nothing of them; I was forced to taste

each of them in turn; to feed on them; to have for a season; indeed;

no other food at all。



I don't regret for a single moment having lived for pleasure。  I did

it to the full; as one should do everything that one does。  There

was no pleasure I did not experience。  I threw the pearl of my soul

into a cup of wine。  I went down the primrose path to the sound of

flutes。  I lived on honeycomb。  But to have continued the same life

would have been wrong because it would have been limiting。  I had to

pass on。  The other half of the garden had its secrets for me also。…

…De Profundis







THE GRAND ROMANTIC







it is when he deals with a sinner that Christ is most romantic; in

the sense of most real。  The world had always loved the saint as

being the nearest possible approach to the perfection of God。

Christ; through some divine instinct in him; seems to have always

loved the sinner as being the nearest possible approach to the

perfection of man。  His primary desire was not to reform people; any

more than his primary desire was to a relieve suffering。  To turn an

interesting thief into a tedious honest man was not his aim。  He

would have thought little of the Prisoners' Aid Society and other

modern movements of the kind。  The conversion of a publican into a

Pharisee would not have seemed to him a great achievement。  But in a

manner not yet understood of the world he regarded sin and suffering

as being in themselves beautiful holy things and modes of

perfection。



It seems a very dangerous idea。  It isall great ideas are

dangerous。  That it was Christ's creed admits of no doubt。  That it

is the true creed I don't doubt myself。



Of course the sinner must repent。  But why?  Simply because

otherwise he would be unable to realise what he had done。  The

moment of repentance is the moment of initiation。  More than that:

it is the means by which one alters one's past。  The Greeks thought

that impossible。  They often say in their Gnomic aphorisms; 'Even

the Gods cannot alter the past。'  Christ showed that the commonest

sinner could do it; that it was the one thing he could do。  Christ;

had he been asked; would have saidI feel quite certain about it

that the moment the prodigal son fell on his knees and wept; he made

his having wasted his substance with harlots; his swine…herding and

hungering for the husks they ate; beautiful and holy moments in his

life。  It is difficult for most people to grasp the idea。  I dare

say one has to go to prison to understand it。  If so; it may be

worth while going to prison。



There is something so unique about Christ。  Of course just as there

are false dawns before the dawn itself; and winter days so full of

sudden sunlight that they will cheat the wise crocus into

squandering its gold before its time; and make some foolish bird

call to its mate to build on barren boughs; so there were Christians

before Christ。  For that we should

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