生命不能承受之轻-第12章

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　he　would　issue　a　command；　issue　it　abruptly；　unexpectedly；　softly　yet　firmly　and　authoritatively；　and　at　a　distance：　at　such　moments　he　never　touched　the　woman　he　was　addressing。　He　often　used　it　on　Tereza　as　well；　and　even　though　he　said　it　softly；　even　though　he　whispered　it；　it　was　a　command；　and　obeying　never　failed　to　arouse　her。　Hearing　the　word　now　made　her　desire　to　obey　even　stronger；　because　doing　a　stranger's　bidding　is　a　special　madness；　a　madness　all　the　more　heady　in　this　case　because　the　command　came　not　from　a　man　but　from　a　woman。
Sabina　took　the　camera　from　her；　and　Tereza　took　off　her　clothes。　There　she　stood　before　Sabina　naked　and　disarmed。　Literally　disarmed：　deprived　of　the　apparatus　she　had　been　using　to　cover　her　face　and　aim　at　Sabina　like　a　weapon。　She　was　completely　at　the　mercy　of　Tomas's　mistress。　This　beautiful　submission　intoxicated　Tereza。　She　wished　that　the　moments　she　stood　naked　opposite　Sabina　would　never　end。
I　think　that　Sabina；　too；　felt　the　strange　enchantment　of　the　situation：　her　lover's　wife　standing　oddly　compliant　and　timorous　before　her。　But　after　clicking　the　shutter　two　or　three　times；　almost　frightened　by　the　enchantment　and　eager　to　dispel　it；　she　burst　into　loud　laughter。
Tereza　followed　suit；　and　the　two　of　them　got　dressed。

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All　previous　crimes　of　the　Russian　empire　had　been　committed　under　the　cover　of　a　discreet　shadow。　The　deportation　of　a　million　Lithuanians；　the　murder　of　hundreds　of　thousands　of　Poles；　the　liquidation　of　the　Crimean　Tatars　remain　in　our　memory；　but　no　photographic　documentation　exists；　sooner　or　later　they　will　therefore　be　proclaimed　as　fabrications。　Not　so　the　1968　invasion　of　Czechoslovakia；　of　which　both　stills　and　motion　pictures　are　stored　in　archives　throughout　the　world。
Czech　photographers　and　cameramen　were　acutely　aware　that　they　were　the　ones　who　could　best　do　the　only　thing　left　to　do：　preserve　the　face　of　violence　for　the　distant　future。　Seven　days　in　a　row；　Tereza　roamed　the　streets；　photographing　Russian　soldiers　and　officers　in　compromising　situations。　The　Russians　did　not　know　what　to　do。　They　had　been　carefully　briefed　about　how　to　behave　if　someone　fired　at　them　or　threw　stones；　but　they　had　received　no　directives　about　what　to　do　when　someone　aimed　a　lens。
She　shot　roll　after　roll　and　gave　about　half　of　them；　undeveloped；　to　foreign　journalists　（the　borders　were　still　open；　and　reporters　passing　through　were　grateful　for　any　kind　of　document）。　Many　of　her　photographs　turned　up　in　the　Western　press。　They　were　pictures　of　tanks；　of　threatening　fists；　of　houses　destroyed；　of　corpses　covered　with　bloodstained　red…white…and…blue　Czech　flags；　of　young　men　on　motorcycles　racing　full　speed　around　the　tanks　and　waving　Czech　flags　on　long　staffs；　of　young　girls　in　unbelievably　short　skirts　provoking　the　miserable　sexually　famished　Russian　soldiers　by　kissing　random　passersby　before　their　eyes。　As　I　have　said；　the　Russian　invasion　was　not　only　a　tragedy；　it　was　a　carnival　of　hate　filled　with　a　curious　（and　no　longer　explicable）　euphoria。

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She　took　some　fifty　prints　with　her　to　Switzerland；　prints　she　had　made　herself　with　all　the　care　and　skill　she　could　muster。　She　offered　them　to　a　high…circulation　illustrated　magazine。　The　editor　gave　her　a　kind　reception　（all　Czechs　still　wore　the　halo　of　their　misfortune；　and　the　good　Swiss　were　touched）；　he　offered　her　a　seat；　looked　through　the　prints；　praised　them；　and　explained　that　because　a　certain　time　had　elapsed　since　the　events；　they　hadn't　the　slightest　chance　（　not　that　they　aren't　very　beautiful！　）　of　being　published。
But　it's　not　over　yet　in　Prague！　she　protested；　and　tried　to　explain　to　him　in　her　bad　German　that　at　this　very　moment；　even　with　the　country　occupied；　with　everything　against　them；　workers'　councils　were　forming　in　the　factories；　the　students　were　going　out　on　strike　demanding　the　departure　of　the　Russians；　and　the　whole　country　was　saying　aloud　what　it　thought。　That's　what's　so　unbelievable！　And　nobody　here　cares　anymore。　
The　editor　was　glad　when　an　energetic　woman　came　into　the　office　and　interrupted　the　conversation。　The　woman　handed　him　a　folder　and　said；　Here's　the　nudist　beach　article。　
The　editor　was　delicate　enough　to　fear　that　a　Czech　who　photographed　tanks　would　find　pictures　of　naked　people　on　a　beach　frivolous。　He　laid　the　folder　at　the　far　end　of　the　desk　and　quickly　said　to　the　woman；　How　would　you　like　to　meet　a　Czech　colleague　of　yours？　She's　brought　me　some　marvelous　pictures。　
The　woman　shook　Tereza's　hand　and　picked　up　her　photographs。　Have　a　look　at　mine　in　the　meantime；　she　said。
Tereza　leaned　over　to　the　folder　and　took　out　the　pictures。
Almost　apologetically　the　editor　said　to　Tereza；　Of　course　they're　completely　different　from　your　pictures。　
Not　at　all；　said　Tereza。　They're　the　same。　
Neither　the　editor　nor　the　photographer　understood　her；　and　even　I　find　it　difficult　to　explain　what　she　had　in　mind　when　she　compared　a　nude　beach　to　the　Russian　invasion。　Looking　through　the　pictures；　she　stopped　for　a　time　at　one　that　showed　a　family　of　four　standing　in　a　circle：　a　naked　mother　leaning　over　her　children；　her　giant　tits　hanging　low　like　a　goat's　or　cow's；　and　the　husband　leaning　the　same　way　on　the　other　side；　his　penis　and　scrotum　looking　very　much　like　an　udder　in　miniature。
You　don't　like　them；　do　you？　asked　the　editor。
They're　good　photographs。　
She's　shocked　by　the　subject　matter；　said　the　woman。　I　can　tell　just　by　looking　at　you　that　you've　never　set　foot　on　a　nude　beach。　
No；　said　Tereza。
The　editor　smiled。　You　see　how　easy　it　is　to　guess　where　you're　from？　The　Communist　countries　are　awfully　puritanical。　
There's　nothing　wrong　with　the　naked　body；　the　woman　said　with　maternal　affection。　It's　normal。　And　everything　normal　is　beautiful！　
The　image　of　her　mother　marching　through　the　flat　naked　flashed　through　Tereza's　mind。　She　could　still　hear　the　laughter　behind　her　back　when　she　ran　and　pulled　the　curtains　to　stop　the　neighbors　from　seeing　her　naked　mother。

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The　woman　photographer　invited　Tereza　to　the　magazine's　cafeteria　for　a　cup　of　coffee。　Those　pictures　of　yours；　they're　very　interesting。　I　couldn't　help　noticing　what　a　terrific　sense　of　the　female　body　you　have。　You　know　what　I　mean。　The　girls　with　the　provocative　poses！　
The　ones　kissing　passersby　in　front　of　the　Russian　tanks？　
Yes。　You'd　be　a　top…notch　fashion　photographer；　you　know？　You'd　have　to　get　yourself　a　model　first；　someone　like　you　who's　looking　for　a　break。　Then　you　could　make　a　portfolio　of　photographs　and　show　them　to　the　agencies。　It　would　take　some　time　before　you　made　a　name　for　yourself；　naturally；　but　I　can　do　one　thing　for　you　here　and　now：　introduce　you　to　the　editor　in　charge　of　our　garden　section。　He　might　need　some　shots　of　cactuses　and　roses　and　things。　
Thank　you　very　much；　Tereza　said　sincerely；　because　it　was　clear　that　the　woman　sitting　opposite　her　was　full　of　good　will。
But　then　she　said　to　herself；　Why　take　pictures　of　cactuses？　She　had　no　desire　to　go　through　in　Zurich　what　she'd　been　through　in　Prague：　battles　over　job　and　career；　over　every　picture　published。　She　had　never　been　ambitious　out　of　vanity。　All　she　had　ever　wanted　was　to　escape　from　her　mother's　world。　Yes；　she　saw　it　with　absolute　clarity：　no　matter　how　enthusiastic　she　was　about　taking　pictures；　she　could　just　as　easily　have　turned　her　enthusiasm　to　any　other　endeavor。　Photography　was　nothing　but　a　way　of　getting　at　something　higher　and　living　beside　Tomas。
She　said；　My　husband　is　a　doctor。　He　can　support　me。　I　don't　need　to　take　pictures。　
The　woman　photographer　replied；　I　don't　see　how　you　can　give　it　up　after　the　beautiful　work　you've　done。　
Yes；　the　pictures　of　the　invasion　were　something　else　again。　She　had　not　done　them　for　Tomas。　She　had　done　them　out　of　passion。　But　not　passion　for　photography。　She　had　done　them　out　of　passionate　hatred。　The　situation　would　never　recur。　And　these　photographs；　which　she　had　made　out　of　passion；　were　the　ones　nobody　wanted　because　they　were　out　of　date。　Only　cactuses　had　perennial　appeal。　And　cactuses　were　of　no　interest　to　her。
She　said；　You're　too　kind；　really；　but　I'd　rather　stay　at　home。　I　don't　need　a　jo