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scrutiny as if I had had on a casque with the visor down´or rather I
showed him my countenance with the confidence that one would
show an unlearned man a letter written in Greek�察 �he might see
lines�察�and trace characters�察�but he could make nothing of them�察�my
nature was not his nature�察�and its signs were to him like the words
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of an unknown tongue。 Ere long he turned away abruptly�察 �as if
baffled�察�and left the counting´house�察�he returned to it but twice in
the course of that day�察�each time he mixed and swallowed a glass
of brandy´and´water�察�the materials for making which he extracted
from a cupboard on one side of the fireplace�察�having glanced at my
translations!he could read both French and German!he went
out again in silence。
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Chapter III
served Edward as his second clerk faithfully�察 �punctually�察�
Idiligently。 What was given me to do I had the power and the
determination to do well。 Mr。 Crimsworth watched sharply for
defects�察 �but found none�察 �he set Timothy Steighton�察 �his favourite
and head man�察 �to watch also。 Tim was baffled�察 �I was as exact as
himself�察�and quicker。 Mr。 Crimsworth made inquiries as to how I
lived�察�whether I got into debt!no�察�my accounts with my landlady
were always straight。 I had hired small lodgings�察�which I contrived
to pay for out of a slender fund!the accumulated savings of my
Eton pocket´money�察 �for as it had ever been abhorrent to my
nature to ask pecuniary assistance�察�I had early acquired habits of
self´denying economy�察 �husbanding my monthly allowance with
anxious care�察 �in order to obviate the danger of being forced�察 �in
some moment of future exigency�察 �to beg additional aid。 I
remember many called me miser at the time�察�and I used to couple
the reproach with this consolation!better to be misunderstood
now than repulsed hereafter。 At this day I had my reward�察 �I had
had it before�察 �when on parting with my irritated uncles one of
them threw down on the table before me a ♀5 note�察 �which I was
able to leave there�察 �saying that my travelling expenses were
already provided for。 Mr。 Crimsworth employed Tim to find out
whether my landlady had any complaint to make on the score of
my morals�察�she answered that she believed I was a very religious
man�察�and asked Tim�察�in her turn�察�if he thought I had any intention
of going into the Church some day�察 �for�察 �she said�察 �she had had
young curates to lodge in her house who were nothing equal to me
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for steadiness and quietness。 Tim was ^a religious man ̄ himself�察�
indeed�察 �he was ^a joined Methodist�察院 �which did not ��be it
understood�� prevent him from being at the same time an
engrained rascal�察�and he came away much posed at hearing this
account of my piety。 Having imparted it to Mr。 Crimsworth�察 �that
gentleman�察 �who himself frequented no place of worship�察 �and
owned no God but Mammon�察 �turned the information into a
weapon of attack against the equability of my temper。 He
commenced a series of covert sneers�察 �of which I did not at first
perceive the drift�察 �till my landlady happened to relate the
conversation she had had with Mr。 Steighton�察�this enlightened me�察�
afterwards I came to the counting´house prepared�察�and managed
to receive the mill´owner¨s blasphemous sarcasms�察 �when next
levelled at me�察�on a buckler of impenetrable indifference。 Ere long
he tired of wasting his ammunition on a statue�察 �but he did not
throw away the shafts!he only kept them quiet in his quiver。
Once during my clerkship I had an invitation to Crimsworth
Hall�察�it was on the occasion of a large party given in honour of the
master¨s birthday�察 �he had always been accustomed to invite his
clerks on similar anniversaries�察�and could not well pass me over�察�I
was�察 �however�察 �kept strictly in the background。 Mrs。 Crimsworth�察�
elegantly dressed in satin and lace�察�blooming in youth and health�察�
vouchsafed me no more notice than was expressed by a distant
move�察�Crimsworth�察�of course�察�never spoke to me�察�I was introduced
to none of the band of young ladies�察 �who�察 �enveloped in silvery
clouds of white gauze and muslin�察�sat in array against me on the
opposite side of a long and large room�察�in fact�察�I was fairly isolated�察�
and could but contemplate the shining ones from afar�察�and when
weary of such a dazzling scene�察 �turn for a change to the
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consideration of the carpet pattern。 Mr。 Crimsworth�察�standing on
the rug�察 �his elbow supported by the marble mantelpiece�察 �and
about him a group of very pretty girls�察 �with whom he conversed
gaily!Mr。 Crimsworth�察 �thus placed�察 �glanced at me�察 �I looked
weary�察�solitary�察�kept down like some desolate tutor or governess�察�
he was satisfied。
Dancing began�察 �I should have liked well enough to be
introduced to some pleasing and intelligent girl�察 �and to have
freedom and opportunity to show that I could both feel and
communicate the pleasure of social intercourse!that I was not�察�in
short�察 �a block�察 �or a piece of furniture�察 �but an acting�察 �thinking�察�
sentient man。 Many smiling faces and graceful figures glided past
me�察 �but the smiles were lavished on other eyes�察 �the figures
sustained by other hands than mine。 I turned away tantalized�察�left
the dancers�察�and wandered into the oak´panelled dining´room。 No
fibre of sympathy united me to any living thing in this house�察 �I
looked for and found my mother¨s picture。 I took a wax taper from
a stand�察�and held it up。 I gazed long�察�earnestly�察�my heart grew to
the image。 My mother�察�I perceived�察�had bequeathed to me much of
her features and countenance!her forehead�察 �her eyes�察 �her
complexion。 No regular beauty pleases egotistical human beings
so much as a softened and refined likeness of themselves�察�for this
reason�察 �fathers regard with complacency the lineaments of their
daughters¨ faces�察 �where frequently their own similitude is found
flatteringly associated with softness of hue and delicacy of outline。
I was just wondering how that picture�察�to me so interesting�察�would
strike an impartial spectator�察 �when a voice close behind me
pronounced the words!
^Humph� �ther