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pleasant punch´bowl�察�while Dr。 Tanzey had all the requisite knowledge for
the faculty for the bedside。
It was in this year that the hour´plate and hand on the kirk steeple were
renewed�察�as indeed�察�may yet be seen by the date�察�though it be again greatly
in want of fresh gilding�察 �for it was by my advice that the figures of the
Ann。 Dom。 were placed one in each corner。 In this year�察 �likewise�察 �the
bridge over the Brawl burn was builta great convenience�察�in the winter
time�察 �to the parishioners that lived on the north side�察 �for when there
happened to be a spait on the Sunday�察�it kept them from the kirk�察�but I did
not find that the bridge mended the matter�察�till after the conclusion of the
war against the democrats�察 �and the beginning of that which we are now
waging with Boney�察�their child and champion。 It is�察�indeed�察�wonderful to
think of the occultation of grace that was taking place about this time�察�
throughout the whole bound of Christendom�察 �for I could mark a visible
darkness of infidelity spreading in the corner of the vineyard committed to
my keeping�察�and a falling away of the vines from their wonted props and
confidence in the truths of Revelation。 But I said nothing。 I knew that
the faith could not be lost�察�and that it would be found purer and purer the
more it was tried�察�and this I have lived to see�察�many now being zealous
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members of the church�察�that were abundantly lukewarm at the period of
which I am now speaking。
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CHAPTER XXXII YEAR 1791
In the spring of this year�察�I took my son Gilbert into Glasgow�察�to place
him in a counting´house。 As he had no inclination for any of the learned
professions�察�and not having been there from the time when I was sent to
the General Assembly�察 �I cannot express my astonishment at the great
improvements�察�surpassing far all that was done in our part of the country�察�
which I thought was not to be paralleled。 When I came afterwards to
reflect on my simplicity in this�察�it was clear to me that we should not judge
of the rest of the world by what we see going on around ourselves�察 �but
walk abroad into other parts�察 �and thereby enlarge our sphere of
observation�察�as well as ripen our judgment of things。
But although there was no doubt a great and visible increase of the city�察�
loftier buildings on all sides�察�and streets that spread their arms far into the
embraces of the country�察 �I thought the looks of the population were
impaired�察�and that there was a greater proportion of long white faces in the
Trongate�察 �than when I attended the Divinity class。 These�察 �I was told�察�
were the weavers and others concerned in the cotton trade�察�which I could
well believe�察 �for they were very like in their looks to the men of
Cayenneville�察 �but from living in a crowded town�察 �and not breathing a
wholesome country air between their tasks�察 �they had a stronger cast of
unhealthy melancholy。 I was therefore very glad that Providence had
placed in my hand the pastoral staff of a country parish�察�for it cut me to the
heart to see so many young men�察�in the rising prime of life�察�already in the
arms of a pale consumption。 ;If�察 �therefore�察─ �said I to Mrs Balwhidder�察�
when I returned home to the manse�察 �we live�察�as it were�察�within the narrow
circle of ignorance�察�we are spared from the pain of knowing many an evil�察�
and�察�surely�察�in much knowledge there is sadness of heart。;
But the main effect of this was to make me do all in my power to keep
my people contented with their lowly estate�察 �for in that same spirit of
improvement�察�which was so busy every where�察�I could discern something
like a shadow�察 �that showed it was not altogether of that pure advantage
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which avarice led all so eagerly to believe。 Accordingly�察�I began a series of
sermons on the evil and vanity of riches�察�and�察�for the most part of the year�察�
pointed out in what manner they led the possessor to indulge in sinful
luxuries�察 �and how indulgence begat desire�察 �and desire betrayed integrity
and corrupted the heart�察�making it evident that the rich man was liable to
forget his unmerited obligations to God�察�and to oppress the laborious and
the needful when he required their services。
Little did I imagine�察�in thus striving to keep aloof the ravenous wolf
Ambition from my guileless flock�察 �that I was giving cause for many to
think me an enemy to the king and government�察 �and a perverter of
Christianity�察 �to suit levelling doctrines。 But so it was。 Many of the
heritors considered me a blackneb�察�though I knew it not�察�but went on in the
course of my duty�察�thinking only how best to preserve peace on earth and
goodwill towards men。 I saw�察 �however�察 �an altered manner in the
deportment of several�察�with whom I had long lived in friendly terms。 It
was not marked enough to make me inquire the cause�察 �but sufficiently
plain to affect my ease of mind。 Accordingly�察�about the end of this year�察�I
fell into a dull way�此 �my spirit was subdued�察�and at times I was aweary of
the day�察�and longed for the night�察�when I might close my eyes in peaceful
slumbers。 I missed my son Gilbert�察�who had been a companion to me in
the long nights�察 �while his mother was busy with the lasses�察 �and their
ceaseless wheels and cardings�察�in the kitchen。 Often could I have found
it in my heart to have banned that never´ceasing industry�察�and to tell Mrs
Balwhidder�察 �that the married state was made for something else than to
make napery and beetle blankets�察�but it was her happiness to keep all at
work�察�and she had no pleasure in any other way of life�察�so I sat many a
night by the fireside with resignation�察 �sometimes in the study�察 �and
sometimes in the parlour�察 �and�察 �as I was doing nothing�察 �Mrs Balwhidder
said it was needless to light the candle。 Our daughter Janet was in this
time at a boarding´school in Ayr�察 �so that I was really a most solitary
married man。
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CHAPTER XXXIII YEAR 1792
When the spring in this year began to brighten on the brae�察�the cloud
of dulness that had darkened and oppressed me all the winter somewhat
melted away�察�and I could now and then joke again at the never´ending toil
and trouble of that busiest of all bees�察�the second Mrs Balwhidder。 But
still I was far from being right�此�a small matter affected me�察 �and I was
overly given to walking by myself�察�and musing on things that I could tell
nothing aboutmy thoughts were just the rack of a dream without form�察�
and driving witlessly as the smoke that mounteth up�察�and is lost in