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over and over�察 �all arms and legs it seemed�察 �the shaft of the arrow
projecting from his chest and appearing and disappearing with each
revolution of his body。
Sheer down�察 �screaming�察 �seventy feet he fell�察 �smashing to the earth
with an audible thud and crunch�察�his body rebounding slightly and settling
down again。 Still he lived�察�for he moved and squirmed�察�clawing with his
hands and feet。 I remember the Fire´Man running forward with a stone
and hammering him on the head。。。and then I remember no more。
Always�察�during my childhood�察�at this stage of the dream�察�did I wake up
screaming with frightto find�察 �often�察 �my mother or nurse�察 �anxious and
startled�察 �by my bedside�察 �passing soothing hands through my hair and
telling me that they were there and that there was nothing to fear。
My next dream�察 �in the order of succession�察 �begins always with the
flight of Lop´Ear and myself through the forest。 The Fire´Man and
Broken´Tooth and the tree of the tragedy are gone。 Lop´Ear and I�察�in a
cautious panic�察�are fleeing through the trees。 In my right leg is a burning
pain�察�and from the flesh�察�protruding head and shaft from either side�察�is an
arrow of the Fire´Man。 Not only did the pull and strain of it pain me
severely�察�but it bothered my movements and made it impossible for me to
keep up with Lop´Ear。
At last I gave up�察 �crouching in the secure fork of a tree。 Lop´Ear
went right on。 I called to himmost plaintively�察 �I remember�察 �and he
stopped and looked back。 Then he returned to me�察�climbing into the fork
and examining the arrow。 He tried to pull it out�察�but one way the flesh
resisted the barbed lead�察�and the other way it resisted the feathered shaft。
Also�察�it hurt grievously�察�and I stopped him。
For some time we crouched there�察�Lop´Ear nervous and anxious to be
gone�察 �perpetually and apprehensively peering this way and that�察 �and
myself whimpering softly and sobbing。 Lop´Ear was plainly in a funk�察�
and yet his conduct in remaining by me�察�in spite of his fear�察�I take as a
foreshadowing of the altruism and comradeship that have helped make
man the mightiest of the animals。
Once again Lop´Ear tried to drag the arrow through the flesh�察 �and I
angrily stopped him。 Then he bent down and began gnawing the shaft of
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the arrow with his teeth。 As he did so he held the arrow firmly in both
hands so that it would not play about in the wound�察�and at the same time I
held on to him。 I often meditate upon this scenethe two of us�察 �half´
grown cubs�察�in the childhood of the race�察�and the one mastering his fear�察�
beating down his selfish impulse of flight�察�in order to stand by and succor
the other。 And there rises up before me all that was there foreshadowed�察�
and I see visions of Damon and Pythias�察 �of life´saving crews and Red
Cross nurses�察�of martyrs and leaders of forlorn hopes�察�of Father Damien�察�
and of the Christ himself�察�and of all the men of earth�察�mighty of stature�察�
whose strength may trace back to the elemental loins of Lop´Ear and Big´
Tooth and other dim denizens of the Younger World。
When Lop´Ear had chewed off the head of the arrow�察 �the shaft was
withdrawn easily enough。 I started to go on�察�but this time it was he that
stopped me。 My leg was bleeding profusely。 Some of the smaller veins
had doubtless been ruptured。 Running out to the end of a branch�察�Lop´
Ear gathered a handful of green leaves。 These he stuffed into the wound。
They accomplished the purpose�察�for the bleeding soon stopped。 Then we
went on together�察�back to the safety of the caves。
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CHAPTER VIII
Well do I remember that first winter after I left home。 I have long
dreams of sitting shivering in the cold。 Lop´Ear and I sit close together�察�
with our arms and legs about each other�察 �blue´faced and with chattering
teeth。 It got particularly crisp along toward morning。 In those chill early
hours we slept little�察�huddling together in numb misery and waiting for the
sunrise in order to get warm。
When we went outside there was a crackle of frost under foot。 One
morning we discovered ice on the surface of the quiet water in the eddy
where was the drinking´place�察�and there was a great How´do´you´do about
it。 Old Marrow´Bone was the oldest member of the horde�察 �and he had
never seen anything like it before。 I remember the worried�察�plaintive look
that came into his eyes as he examined the ice。 ��This plaintive look
always came into our eyes when we did not understand a thing�察�or when
we felt the prod of some vague and inexpressible desire。�� Red´Eye�察 �too�察�
when he investigated the ice�察�looked bleak and plaintive�察�and stared across
the river into the northeast�察�as though in some way he connected the Fire
People with this latest happening。
But we found ice only on that one morning�察�and that was the coldest
winter we experienced。 I have no memory of other winters when it was
so cold。 I have often thought that that cold winter was a fore´runner of
the countless cold winters to come�察 �as the ice´sheet from farther north
crept down over the face of the land。 But we never saw that ice´sheet。
Many generations must have passed away before the descendants of the
horde migrated south�察�or remained and adapted themselves to the changed
conditions。
Life was hit or miss and happy´go´lucky with us。 Little was ever
planned�察 �and less was executed。 We ate when we were hungry�察 �drank
when we were thirsty�察�avoided our carnivorous enemies�察�took shelter in the
caves at night�察�and for the rest just sort of played along through life。
We were very curious�察 �easily amused�察 �and full of tricks and pranks。
There was no seriousness about us�察 �except when we were in danger or
were angry�察�in which cases the one was quickly forgotten and the other as
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quickly got over。
We were inconsecutive�察 �illogical�察 �and inconsequential。 We had no
steadfastness of purpose�察�and it was here that the Fire People were ahead
of us。 They possessed all these things of which we possessed so little。
Occasionally�察�however�察�especially in the realm of the emotions�察�we were
capable of long´cherished purpose。 The faithfulness of the monogamic
couples I have referred to may be explained as a matter of habit�察�but my
long desire for the Swift One cannot be so explained�察�any more than can
be explained the undying enmity between me and Red´Eye。
But it was our inconsequentiality and stupidity that especially
distresses me when I look back upon that life in the long ago。 Once I
found a broke