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And now put yourself in my place for a moment。 Walk with me a bit
in my tender childhood�察 �bed with me a night and imagine yourself
dreaming such incomprehensible horrors。 Remember I was an
inexperienced child。 I had never seen a wild boar in my life。 For that
matter I had never seen a domesticated pig。 The nearest approach to one
that I had seen was breakfast bacon sizzling in its fat。 And yet here�察�real
as life�察�wild boars dashed through my dreams�察�and I�察�with fantastic parents�察�
swung through the lofty tree´spaces。
Do you wonder that I was frightened and oppressed by my nightmare´
ridden nights�拭 �I was accursed。 And�察�worst of all�察�I was afraid to tell。 I
do not know why�察�except that I had a feeling of guilt�察�though I knew no
better of what I was guilty。 So it was�察�through long years�察�that I suffered
in silence�察�until I came to man's estate and learned the why and wherefore
of my dreams。
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CHAPTER IV
There is one puzzling thing about these prehistoric memories of mine。
It is the vagueness of the time element。 I lo not always know the order of
events��or can I tell�察�between some events�察�whether one�察�two�察�or four or
five years have elapsed。 I can only roughly tell the passage of time by
judging the changes in the appearance and pursuits of my fellows。
Also�察 �I can apply the logic of events to the various happenings。 For
instance�察�there is no doubt whatever that my mother and I were treed by
the wild pigs and fled and fell in the days before I made the acquaintance
of Lop´Ear�察�who became what I may call my boyhood chum。 And it is
just as conclusive that between these two periods I must have left my
mother。
I have no memory of my father than the one I have given。 Never�察�in
the years that followed�察�did he reappear。 And from my knowledge of the
times�察�the only explanation possible lies in that he perished shortly after
the adventure with the wild pigs。 That it must have been an untimely end�察�
there is no discussion。 He was in full vigor�察�and only sudden and violent
death could have taken him off。 But I know not the manner of his going´
´whether he was drowned in the river�察�or was swallowed by a snake�察 �or
went into the stomach of old Saber´Tooth�察 �the tiger�察 �is beyond my
knowledge。
For know that I remember only the things I saw myself�察�with my own
eyes�察�in those prehistoric days。 If my mother knew my father's end�察�she
never told me。 For that matter I doubt if she had a vocabulary adequate
to convey such information。 Perhaps�察�all told�察�the Folk in that day had a
vocabulary of thirty or forty sounds。
I call them SOUNDS�察�rather than WORDS�察�because sounds they were
primarily。 They had no fixed values�察 �to be altered by adjectives and
adverbs。 These latter were tools of speech not yet invented。 Instead of
qualifying nouns or verbs by the use of adjectives and adverbs�察 �we
qualified sounds by intonation�察 �by changes in quantity and pitch�察 �by
retarding and by accelerating。 The length of time employed in the
utterance of a particular sound shaded its meaning。
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We had no conjugation。 One judged the tense by the context。 We
talked only concrete things because we thought only concrete things。
Also�察�we depended largely on pantomime。 The simplest abstraction was
practically beyond our thinking�察�and when one did happen to think one�察�he
was hard put to communicate it to his fellows。 There were no sounds for
it。 He was pressing beyond the limits of his vocabulary。 If he invented
sounds for it�察�his fellows did not understand the sounds。 Then it was that
he fell back on pantomime�察�illustrating the thought wherever possible and
at the same time repeating the new sound over and over again。
Thus language grew。 By the few sounds we possessed we were
enabled to think a short distance beyond those sounds�察�then came the need
for new sounds wherewith to express the new thought。 Sometimes�察�
however�察 �we thought too long a distance in advance of our sounds�察�
managed to achieve abstractions ��dim ones I grant���察 �which we failed
utterly to make known to other folk。 After all�察�language did not grow fast
in that day。
Oh�察�believe me�察�we were amazingly simple。 But we did know a lot
that is not known to´day。 We could twitch our ears�察�prick them up and
flatten them down at will。 And we could scratch between our shoulders
with ease。 We could throw stones with our feet。 I have done it many a
time。 And for that matter�察�I could keep my knees straight�察�bend forward
from the hips�察�and touch�察�not the tips of my fingers�察�but the points of my
elbows�察 �to the ground。 And as for bird´nestingwell�察 �I only wish the
twentieth´century boy could see us。 But we made no collections of eggs。
We ate them。
I rememberbut I out´run my story。 First let me tell of Lop´Ear and
our friendship。 Very early in my life�察 �I separated from my mother。
Possibly this was because�察�after the death of my father�察�she took to herself
a second husband。 I have few recollections of him�察�and they are not of
the best。 He was a light fellow。 There was no solidity to him。 He was
too voluble。 His infernal chattering worries me even now as I think of it。
His mind was too inconsequential to permit him to possess purpose。
Monkeys in their cages always remind me of him。 He was monkeyish。
That is the best description I can give of him。
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He hated me from the first。 And I quickly learned to be afraid of him
and his malicious pranks。 Whenever he came in sight I crept close to my
mother and clung to her。 But I was growing older all the time�察�and it was
inevitable that I should from time to time stray from her�察�and stray farther
and farther。 And these were the opportunities that the Chatterer waited
for。 ��I may as well explain that we bore no names in those days�察�were not
known by any name。 For the sake of convenience I have myself given
names to the various Folk I was more closely in contact with�察 �and the
;Chatterer; is the most fitting description I can find for that precious
stepfather of mine。 As for me�察 �I have named myself ;Big´Tooth。; My
eye´teeth were pronouncedly large。��
But to return to the Chatterer。 He persistently terrorized me。 He was
always pinching me and cuffing me�察 �and on occasion he was not above
biting me。 Often my mother interfered�察�and the way she made his fur fly
was a joy to see。 But the result of all this was a beautiful and unending
family quarrel�察�in which I was the bone of contention。
No�察 �my home´life was not happy。 I smile to myself as I write the
ph